Thoughts of You . . .

Is it okay to feel afraid?
Because I am . . . sometimes
afraid of taking a chance, afraid of losing
even afraid of winning sometimes.

I'm scared to love to much,
scared to hold on to tight
when you may want to be free;
scared of letting go
when I need you to hold me.

And I need to know
if it's okay to feel afraid,
because sometimes I am . . .
because I love you so much . . .

I will love you not just today
or a year from now
but within the heart of my feelings
where time can draw no boundaries.

I will love you
not just a memory of
a moment shared
but in every glimpse of beauty
that stirs my senses and captures
my pleasure to live.

When I walk alone
you will be the sun at my back
and the smile on my lips.

In my dreams
you will appear as the visions
I've yet to see.

Whether real or imagined
each part of my life is measured
with you at the center of love . . .

I LOVE YOU HON,
HAPPY 9th MONTHSARY...

More Than You Know

I'd like to tell you
how much I love you,
and I hope you know that I do...
I wish that the words I speak
so gently to you could be
heard by your heart
with the same meanings
and the same soft feelings of love
that they carry from deep within me...


For more than you know ...
I love so many things about you.
More than just the way you hold me
and the warmth you give;
I enjoy sharing life with you.
I enjoy the way we balance each other out,
how we share the good times
and support each other through the tears.
I enjoy the knowledge that we'll make it
through whatever life brings
with courage and with love
through the years...


More than you know ...
and more than I can ever say,
I feel a wonderful thankfulness
in my heart ... just for you.
And I want you to remember, though
my thoughts don't always convey
and my feelings don't always show,
I love you, and I always will ...

What i love about you!

If someone were to ask what I loved about you the most
I wouldn't know where to begin,
I would start by taking a deep breath and hope they can it all in.


I love it when you smile,
I love the way you laugh,
I love now and forever more,
You are my better half.


I love you in the morning,
I love you in the night,
I love it when you talk you're mind,
Cause none of it is shight.


I love to stair into you're eyes,
A moment i could forever keep,
I love to hold you in my arms,
And watch you fall asleep.


I love the way you love me,
It soars me through the skies,
Swimming through that ocean,
Placed deep within you're eyes.


I love the way way you're always there,
Waiting for me to be done,
There really is no doubt at all,
That you really are the one.

One More Chance Together...

It's fair to say that the past few weeks have been somber and gloomy for me. It has been like living in the dark, as though a big black evil cloud has engulfed me.

I have also felt like there has been a piece missing from my heart, and although I wasn't sure what that piece was, I now realize it was the part I gave to you. You have been the missing piece of my heart!

Now, slowly, it's as though that piece is being fumbled back into place and I'm starting to see a glimmer of light, just as though someone, somewhere has turned on a light and it's starting to flicker alive.

It's hard for me to explain what the feeling is, all I can say is that when I've been with you lately, the movie I'm watching seems better, the music I'm listening to sounds more alive.

Everything I've ever done in my life has been better, brighter and more exciting when I've been able to share it with you.

I want you to know that the most important thing in my life is you. Nothing beats holding you in my arms, touching your hair and smelling your scent, the one that belongs to you alone.

I love you, I'm sure you must realize that, but for me, that is no longer enough now. I want you to really know how much I love you. But I so dearly need the comfort and the security of knowing that whenever I say, "I love you," you're going to say the same words, too. But I just wish that sometimes you would say them before I do - and make me believe you mean them so much.

I've always felt so lucky you decided to share your life with me, and there's nothing, just nothing, I wouldn't do to make you happy. I just want you to want me. Just like I want you.

There's no price you can put on love. And I know you just can't make love come back to the way it was: I know it'll come back, if, and when it's ready. But I just want you to know that for every ounce of love you give to me, I will give it back to you a thousand times more.

I worship you and adore you and no one could ever compete with the beauty I see when you stand before me. I would never do anything to hurt you, I want only to love you and re-build our life together. I don't need anyone else but you.

If only I could have come up with the right words to describe the depth of feeling that I have for you, I would have uttered them to you a thousand times.

You're all I've ever dreamt of and you know you are the best thing that ever happened to me.

I love you, more than my life... more than my world. You are my world. Life wouldn't be life if I couldn't share it with you.

Then There Was You

While I lay here waiting to hear from you, I can't help thinking about what my life has become when you became a part of it. Waiting and wanting you has been the focus of my thoughts these days, knowing that one day, all that I have envisioned of us being together, will finally happen, even if it's just for a moment.

You give me reason to wake up in the morning and smile. Just smile for no particular reason except the fact that you are here. As days go by I feel myself growing closer and closer and my heart is suddenly coming out of its shy spot and wanting to feel what it feels like to be loved again. I don't ever want to lose this feeling. I don't ever want to lose you.

When I hear your voice, it's like a feeling I don't want to leave; you give me comfort and joy. The sound of your voice is like my favorite love song, I can listen to it all night until it puts me to sleep. Yet, still as I continue to lay here and think about everything you are to me, I can't help but wonder, what's on your mind too? How much do you feel, and how real do you think this really is?

Still, I just want you to know that wherever this road may take us, and how far it may be to finally get where we want to go, always know you are in my heart and in my heart is where you'll always be. Life hasn't been this grateful to me, until there was you. I really love you, and missing you badly now.

Thank you for being you. What I'd like to say next, I'd like to say to you personally. Until then....

For You Are The One

For you I would climb
The highest mountain peak
Swim the deepest ocean
Your love I do seek.

For you I would cross
The rivers most wide
Walk the hottest desert sand
To have you by my side.

For you are the one
Who makes me whole
You’ve captured my heart
And touched my soul.

For you are the one
That stepped out of my dreams
Gave me new hope
Showed me what love means.

For you alone
Are my reason to live
For the compassion you show
And the care that you give.

You came into my life
And made me complete
Each time I see you
My heart skips a beat.

For you define beauty
In both body and mind
Your soft, gentle face
More beauty I’ll ne’er find.

For you are the one
God sent from above
The angel I needed
For whom I do love.

I CAn’t give you my precious
HEART
BUT one thing i promise
MY HEART will
NEVER FORGET You

EVEN a single day or may be a
THOUSAND YEARS
"I will always love you

Missing You Again..

I miss you, I really do. Even though I see you everyday, am with you at every moment, yet still I miss you. And when you think about it, how could you possibly miss someone constantly in your thoughts, in your dreams in your fantasies?... God I'm blushing!

There are no words that can possibly explain how I feel right now, because in fact, I've never felt this before ... sounds so cliché doesn't it? But that's a fact that I can never hide just like the blush on my cheeks ... always visible manifestations of the love I feel inside.

I don't know if you'll read this; it doesn't really matter though, you're mine and that's what counts.

i Love you so much...

If only I could have come up with the right words to describe the depth of this beautiful feeling that I have for you, I would have whispered them to you the first time we met. The best thing that I can do is to show you now.

I love you so much you are the best thing that ever happened to me. You are like the best poetry ever composed, the best song ever played, the best picture ever painted. I never thought that someone like me could get so lucky!

I love you more than my life, more than my world. I love you more and more each day and that is the most wonderful feeling any man can ever hope to experience.

Expressing My Love...

I want you to know that since the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today.

I've been trying to find a way to express my feelings for you. I’ve always wanted to create something unique to show you just how much I love you. Now I’ve found the right place, and I’m going to tell the world that I LOVE YOU! It may sound crazy and corny, but I want to tell the whole universe about the true and sincere affection I have for you. I cannot tell you exactly how I feel, but I hope that you feel the warmth of my love whenever we are together. I will be right here beside you any time you need me, and I will be with you until I breathe my last breath. I promise to share my life with you no matter what tomorrow may bring.

Missing You..

I wish I didn't have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. But then again, I know that the day will come when I will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. I even miss you when I am sleeping!

I really do love you and I thank you for be so kind with my heart. Hopefully, soon I won't have to hate missing you.

F o r H e r...

I thought this letter writing thing was going to be easy but I guess it's not always that way. I have so many feelings to express that I have no idea where to begin. I never expected to feel this way toward you and to be honest I tried not to fall in love with you. But it got me, it sure got me good. Now that I don't have you I need you more than ever! I read a quote somewhere once that said, "It's not missing you that kills me, it knowing that I had you in my life that does." That is so absolutely true. But what's really bothering me is that I can't tell you how I feel…

I've loved you so much all these months, and those feelings can't and won't ever leave this heart of mine. Every time I am around you I want to let you know that I miss you so much. You are that someone, that special person that I could never deny my love for. I have made some really messed up choices and went down the wrong roads in the past, but I need you to know that because of all of those choices, I have made a turn for the better. I need you in my life, my arms, my heart, and in my world.

All I wanted from the start was to be with you. God knows how much you meant to me, not only as a friend, but with deeper, greater feelings as well…

As you know me by now, this is a way for me to pour my heart out to you, to let you know it's crying and dying because you're gone…

B E I N G_D U M P E D_S U C K S!

Being dumped sucks! Okay, perhaps that phrase isn’t the most poetic, but we really don’t live in poetic times. Getting dumped is bound to be a part of this wonderful game of love, so if you’ve found yourself in that position, cheer up!

You’ve poured your heart out to someone, built a relationship and suddenly it’s no longer there. The emptiness that remains only has two possible cures. The first is that you wait for a painful period of time and eventually you forget about getting dumped and you loose the feelings you felt for whoever dropped the axe. The second is finding a rebound after being dumped. This gets your mind off the painful situation and back on to what’s important: finding true love.

"B R O K E N_H E A RT"

It's the day of hearts once more... The air was filled with love and happiness...
But sadly I am not one of them...

It's been 658 days since i got a heart operation... I was diagnose of Mitral valve prolapse (MVP) is a valvular heart disease characterized by the displacement of an abnormally thickened mitral valve leaflet into the left atrium during systole.
The doctor repair it but sadly it could not be, so they replace with a new one( aluminum)...
Making myself a human time bomb cause every time my heart pumps you will hear a clock ticking... Funny but its true...

Thought I will never feel any pain, but it prove me wrong…

It stings what i feel yesterday... Like my artificial valve was crushing and want to break out of my chest... Seeing your love not minding you and has someone beside her...

Yes I am hurt, she said “I am not yet ready"... It's better to be dump than believing that there are few things in life that are harder on a person than the time when they realize that the love they have was not for them...

But is not the end of my love for her...
Still waiting in silence but not expecting...